Although I’ve Never Saw Him

I do not have to see Him to believe in Him.   The Holy Spirit is constantly guiding me, willing to be my source of comfort.

I was given comfort this week after I  had an uncomfortable conversation with a friend who I adore.  She told me I use God as a crutch.  She said she understood people like me … we cannot face the reality of this world as it is.  “People like you,” she said, “cannot stand the idea that there is nothing after we die.”  I could not argue with that, I don’t like that idea.  I could only sit there and steam.

It was a painful conversation and it was all I could do to keep my mouth shut and not burn the bridge as fast as I could.

The next day, I was sitting at my desk in frump, when a spontaneous thought bubbled up, so unlike my own, I recognized it immediately.   It has taken me a long time to recognize His voice, but as time goes on, I know it by the wisdom it offers, the love it bestows, and it is patient when I am not.  That’s how I know it is Him.

“Why are you mad?  I want to be your crutch.  I love you.”

In that very moment, I felt great love for my friend.

These precious moments I have with Him, I don’t deserve them, but I am so glad I have them … and His voice.   I do not need to see Him to believe in Him.  I know one day I will.  That is good enough for me.

Thomas said to him, “My Lord and my God!”  Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen me and yet have believed.”  – John 20:28-29